Knowledge. I use the word to invert it knowing now it lost you and what good is between us, though nothing, finds me many quiet deaths
And I can't be with you even as friends waiting for you to release me
You've come, you've left; Phenomenal shades of affection Cut me blind under seminal rapture, Exposing dark space. I collapse against the weight of presence, Succumbing to a brilliant exposure of impressions, Which later embed themselves in traces Of lamenting time. Appearance becomes all I have; After departure: imagination takes phase. My life is only living Through distant gaze. The closer i come; the quicker it's lost; the deeper i go... Genuine closeness lives in A proximity farther than you could ever grasp, And dies just the same. In the gaps between closure, Everything is perfection And bitter And sweet And good And filth Because loss is a deep opening Yearning to be closed.
you've forgotten but i'm here, carrying this burden crushed under the weight of your existence i'm breathing memories as i swallow bitter time want to distance myself from your contours every line and shape pierces the barrier of my comfort exposing the raw flesh of vulnerability traces of your time imprinted in my perception making everything i am, and everything you're not your appearance haunts the hollowness of my mind you've left behind as if my substance was yours to extinguish and my life; your game to play dissonant and fragile, i shatter the pieces only to bring them together again reminded incessantly of something you've never felt but something that made me feel everything solutions are a cold dead thing and your warmth digs a deeper hole but if i lose you i lose all hope and hope is all i have
It's not so much you i love, it is the reflection of myself that you give me through recognizing me, I love the character you made of me.
was it 'me' you saw? or what i appear to be, behind the eyes, is it the truth or a lie? our stars crossed burning hot, the flames are ready to die is it me? is it you? what are we to each other? what can we be? what should we be? the connection fits the pieces we just... fill in the roles
i hide in these books my defence against the meaningless that grips me, loneliness distorts the world, distance has left a hole all reality seeps through In the words, i found a home to mend the distance Lose myself in pages for a while waiting for you to find me your image holds so much truth in my world of lies, i cower at the sight yet i'm longing for your gaze need to get out of this house and make this life real again
Have been in this stone too long unable to breath and move Set in this place heart muffled, trembling, My fears covered like moss but i've broken it in two Revealing the core Nothing but more stone, here lies the wreckage of my home Hard and Heavy my enemy, my burden throw it in the lake with all the others, now i've escaped It's worth shedding this cold weight
music to make me feel colours to give life words to make it real pictures capturing an ecstasy surreal and abstract without this for you, there is no me and i don't seek you i don't feel you, without these meanings no joy to realize we have nothing, if we don't idealize through art we've created our love